I love you. I miss you. I wish I could tell you all of the things I want you to know. I wish I could laugh with you one more time. I wish I weren't so selfish, that I hadn't felt so bothered when you called to talk, or needed attention. I wish I hadn't gone a whole year without talking to you and not even noticed. I wish I had never enticed you to smoke cigarettes or pot. I wish I had done more for you. I wish I had kept M--- here so you could have had more of a relationship with him. I wish everything.
I wish I could cry for you more. I wish I could do something about this. I wish I could fast-forward my life to the next time I see you again. I wish I could rewind our lives to whatever missed opportunities to help you I didn't see. I wish I knew what killed you. I wish it had been me instead. I wish I could give your son more time with you. I wish I could give I--- more than a box of ashes and a teddy bear. I wish Mom hadn't lost her only son. I wish I had spent more time with you. I wish you were here.
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